Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I was so worried and anxious this weekend. I was so excited to have 4 days off until Thursday after school when a student of mine approached me and told me about her depression. I couldn't understand what she was talking about, she said a girl in our class was giving her "looks" and talking about her although she had no proof and no idea what was said. I kept probing her until I could get a full idea of what she meant by 'depressed.' Her definition was she is always contemplating suicide over this situation, that she would rather be dead than deal with it. It was like a slap in the face, I was so shocked and stunned at what she was telling me. I quickly referred her to counseling, and my counselor referred her for medical help. I was so glad to see her at school today back in my class. I kept thinking about all that was said to me Thursday and kept running things through my head and thinking about how to solve this situation. The only thing I need to know is-why would a 'look' make you want to end your life? I know we all react so differently and there are chemical unbalances, but it is a look! Why do we build things up beyond what they are? People will always give you 'looks,' especially girls. I just hope she can cope with the things that will hit her in her life to come.
Friday, May 22, 2009
11 more days! I just can't wait. I will miss them so much, but I am starting to see the hormones kick in and they are driving me crazy. I swear if one more of them roll their eyes at me I will come after them. I got one from one of my favorites kids last week and boy he apologized quickly when he saw my face give him the "oh no you didn't (snap)" look. I think he thought I would strangle him, since he jumped a little. :) I definately loved and grew up a lot with this class. It will be a bitter, sweet good-bye.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
This week was a crazy week. We started our end of the year testing called CRT's, and had my last meeting with mine and Tillie's greif group. Our last meeting went so well. We went to McDonald's and Tille gave them some notebook to write their thoughts and feelings inside when they wanted to. It was so great of her. I was the one walking back with the kids right after and heard them talking about making it into their personal journal and how they will write in it. It was a really good experience for me to hear all their thoughts about loosing a loved one. There is a lot of emotion they are carrying on their back and it was great to help them relieve some of their stress. I look forward to having this experience with them next year.